Day 9 & 10 -- Bad Decisions, Part 2

If I were an addict, you would call today a relapse.  In some regards, I guess you could consider me an addict.  My self-destructive weapon of choice?  That would be food.

After a week of pretty great eating, I went off and self-sabotaged again :-\.  I'm not sure what part of my brain controls the justification sector, but it was definitely up and running today.  My parents came to meet me for lunch at Gregg's Restaurant, a pub-like place.  And as much as I reassured myself before leaving my office chair that I would order a salad, grilled chicken and broccoli, or something of the healthy sort, I faltered... yet again.  Why on Earth would I choose a bunch of leafy greens over a grease-laden Cheeseburger and golden fries? 

I know about a week ago I wrote how I had learned my lesson when it came to French Fries and had sworn them off for what I thought was forever.  Turns out forever lasts just more than a week in Nicole's World. 

Earlier today, at about 4:00 (and when the heavy burger started to sit heavier and lower in my stomach), I flashed on an image.  In my head, I envisioned a golden retriever puppy whose owners were trying to train the dog to stay in their yard by installing an electric fence.  Do you see where this is going yet?

Yes, I am that cute, cuddly, rambunctious puppy full of energy and life, and hellbent against being confined.  And unlike the rest of the dogs in the neighborhood, I continuously ignore the "Zzzzap" that keeps stinging my neck as I break free across that line.  Don't get me wrong, I complain to the other dogs about how much it hurts.  But that doesn't stop me.  No matter how much it hurts or the damage it does to me, I still make the wrong choice each and every time. 

Unlike that puppy, I'm hoping I learn my lesson sooner than later.  To help me, I've created a new mantra:  "Fries are Foe."  Whenever I'm tempted, I'm hoping this little chant will remind me to stay on track. 

As for today, well... there's nothing I can do about it now.  (Although looking back, I'm totally regretting that 700-calorie plus lunch).  All I can do is put it behind me, try not to beat myself over the head with the club too much, and try to make better choices tomorrow.

And hopefully, this will be the last time I write about making the same mistake twice.  

Nicole's Daily Menu
Multigrain Cheerios with 1% milk
Cheese stick, sliced strawberries
Ugh... it sickens me to even write it!  Cheeseburger with French Fries :-\
Yogurt, Laughing Cow Spreadable French Onion Cheese and Triscuits (too big a snack, especially after that huge lunch and too much cheese in one day)
Shrimp fried in garlic and olive oil, green beans, rice pilaf
Honestly, do I even need to write it out at this point?  Ice cream.

*Today's meals sucked.  Lots to fix/improve upon tomorrow!


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