Day 1 -- Let's Do This!!!

I'd love to say that I'm more than enthusiastic about starting this challenge.  But let's be honest -- it's going to suck.  Losing 100 pounds is no small feat, as I continuously remind myself.  :-\  I should probably stop doing that, and then maybe the task wouldn't seem so daunting.

Regardless, though, of how much it's going to absolutely, positively, suck, I am semi-excited about embarking on this adventure.  For far too long, I've been trying to squeeze into already-bigger-than-I'd-like jeans and pretending to actually crave that salad I ordered when I'm out with the girls.  And I have to admit, the idea of size 10 jeans has uber appeal right now.

So after months of staring at my dimpled thighs and seemingly endless rolls of stomach flubber, I made my decision: no more Jumbo Nicole. 

Now, it wouldn't be fair to say that this is my first attempt -- because I assure you, it's not.  Not by a long shot.  I've tried Atkins (and almost socked my then boyfriend the first week when he made the not so wise choice to eat Mac 'n Cheese in front of me).  I've tried South Beach (and found myself sobbing as I walked up and down each aisle of Shaws wondering what the hell I could eat).  And I've tried Weight Watchers (just how many points are in a mug full of ice cream again?).  Nothing worked.  So last July, I started seeing a nutritionist.  With her help, I lost 16 pounds. 

And then I got cocky, assuring myself I could complete this journey on my own, now that I had the proper tools to go at it the right way.  But when I cut back on how many times a month I met with her, I quickly found myself slipping back into old routines.  My nutritious, homemade lunches were swapped out for steak and cheese sandwiches at Cheesecake Factory.  Funny how you don't mind eating an entire small pizza and the like when there's no one to report it to! 

So, here I am again.  Not quite where I first started, but getting close to it!  So before my full-blown Jell-O legs make their triumphant return, I figured I'd try and start again. 

Today, Feb. 8, 2010, I weigh 253 pounds.  There, I said it.  It's out there now.  For my parents, in-laws, sister, friends, family members, colleagues, and old classmates to see.  Phew!  (In case you were wondering, yes, that was hard.  And yes, I'm secretly hoping no one is reading this.) 

But hopefully, by Feb. 8, 2011, I'll weigh 153 pounds, and look a little more like Heidi Klum, and a little less like Kirstie Alley.  I'm not going to try fad diets or detox sessions or gastric bypass.  I'm doing this the most natural way I can -- by altering my Keebler/Nabisco-filled eating habits and excercising my giggly ass off!  With the help of Kali, the support of my friends, and some seriously motivating running buddies, I'm going to lose this weight! 

Now... who's with me?!

4 comments:

Azure said...

Hi Nicole,

We haven't talked at all since graduation, but I still keep tabs on you via your Facebook updates when they come across my feed.

I saw your link to this; it's a brave thing to declare your intentions (and your weight) to everyone you know. I have so much respect for you for doing that.

I'm on a mission myself to get down to a weight I'm happy with. 30 pounds isn't as daunting as 100, granted, but every single person with food issues has the same type of issues in her mind.

I've also tried every diet under the sun, have yo-yoed up and down with the same 15 pounds for 6 years, treading water and not going anywhere.

I started seeing a psychologist a month ago, and with her help I'm making a LOT of progress. No fad diets for me either: just exercise and eating normal food in smaller portions. I'm not stressing out, obsessing, or driving myself crazy this time. I started Feb. 1st.

I'm with you. And if you ever need to chat about it, drop me a line.

--Kim C.

Rosemary Petteruti said...

Keep positive and I know you can do it! When you need words of encourgaement instead of chocolate cake, walk to my desk and we'll have a good chat. Good luck.

shabella2@aol.com said...

From working with you and just being your friend, I've seen that you can do (and have done) ANYTHING and everything you set your mind to! 100 lbs? Psshh - have you met Nicole!? Those pounds will be running the other way scared stiff. ;)

I am very excited for you, Nicole! You're so beautiful always, but I know this is important to you and I am completely confident you'll do it!!! I'm with you.

As always, you've motivated me to get off my butt and do something about my own goals. Goals don't accomplish themselves, right? You're a living reminder of that. Love you!

-Nicole S

Amy said...

I was having one of those days where I was feeling sorry for myself. I was looking at the Jillian Michaels page on Facebook and happened to run across the link to your blog. I think things come our way for a reason. I have read through your blog, and have to say I am with you on this. Food became my emotional support through my divorce. From 2003 to now I have gained 100+ pounds. It is so hard for me to look at pictures from back then because I used to be a competitive power lifter weighing. My weight now dictates every aspect of my life - my confidence, social life, etc. I hate it. Your blog has become my new inspiration. Thank you.

Amy

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